i want to visit paris, machu picchu, tokyo, turkey, patagonia, and antarctica.
i want a house to decorate. my master bedroom will be swathed in white and grey lace.
i want to have enough money to live comfortably and not worry about affording the things i want...which are mostly books.
i want to spend my afternoons reading and drinking tea, with my cats curled up next to me.
i want to knit a blanket, and actually finish it.
i want to have a job that i actually enjoy, with higher-ups who actually give a damn about their employees.
i want to be able to travel around the country and visit all my friends.

i want to be happy again.

from tumblr

Clashing Sorrows

I never dared to say these words

I don’t think I’m that brave

I don’t know if they will be heard

I don’t know if they will be felt back

When you talked to me with words

I talked back to you with feelings

Words functioned by feelings

My weakness has been revealed

Why do I care? Why should I care?

When I haven’t even seen your face

Lightening up, looking right at me

Looking right through my soul

Right into my eyes as they sparkle

Sparkling with the sight of you

Get out of my dreams

If you ever loved me

Would you hold me?

Just to reassure me of my feelings

That my feelings have a meaning

That my heart has finally chosen

The one I’d gladly call ‘love of my life’

Is it you?

Has it always been you?

For this image of you

Will stay with me

For as long as I can remember

Before I grow too old to lose

All the memories of you

All the dreams I’ve built

All the hopes of finally holding your hands

Just as I’ve always dreamed of

Feelings won’t be vanished into thin air

Until the very last breath I’d be wasting

Until the last heart beat

-Submitted by still-dreaming-out-loud